I want something that is for me. I want to feel connected to something beyond any level I’ve understood before. I don’t expect what I desire to be unchanging but I do hope it is reliable. I want to know that if it changes, there is still space for me.
lianne la havas is cute enough in the face that her hair can do whatever it wants to and it’ll look like she totally intended for it to look that way and it works great and i hate her for that
I’m not really fond of people lately. I always feel used up after socializing. Like I’m a boredom killer or an ear to vent to. I have no energy. I wish somebody took the time to help build me up for a change.
All my relationships feel trivial and it annoys me. If I’m not helping or entertaining somebody, I am not of use. I don’t think I’m capable of connecting with people and I’m not sure I have ever been.
I want to be held and made to feel safe. I don’t want this haven to be fake, temporary, conditional or unstable. I want to really experience what it means to be the love of somebody’s life. I’m not sure anybody has ever been in love with me and that makes me sad.